Stand in awe...

Just now, my son decided that going to bed before eight o'clock was a travesty that must be protested with wails of anger. And just now, I decided that if he was awake, I was going to take the time to sit with him. And just now, I discovered that my son is honestly ticklish under his right arm but not his left.

These are the moments that parents look back on and are able to keep from being too upset with their teenagers. I literally saw into my future, saw him getting married, and knew that I would remember this moment as he was taking his vows. It was probably the least selfish moment I've ever had in my life. It was too beautiful to express in words, but I'm afraid that if I don't try, I won't be able to explain it to him later.

He is beautiful. He is brilliant. And even just as he's holding my hand and cooing at me manipulatively to get out of going to sleep, I would rather spend this moment with him than do anything else in the world.

Which puts God's love for us into a bit of perspective. Suddenly, I know why our worship is so important, why spending time with us is the only thing he wants. Oh, I'm all mushy and maudlin. I'll write later about all the wonderful things he's doing...